Me and my sis...I am so proud of her! |
She really loved it and wants to do another one! Ahhhh, she is getting sucked into the Running Vortex. I named that need to keep running faster and further the Running Vortex. It's a slippery little slope for me because last time I got sucked into it, I did the Indianapolis 1/2 Marathon in 2004 and had such a horrible time of it that I came shooting out the other end of that Vortex and landed firmly in the Land of Couch, on top of the Runner in me with my great big house and she shriveled up and died. And there I stayed for 7 years (and didn't even get any cute shoes out of it, mind you!).
Well, I woke up from my 7 year trip to the Land of Couch and started running/training again last year.
I have been very careful to keep an eye on the Running Vortex radar. I've stuck pretty much to 5Ks and a little longer races (8K, 10K) and have recently begun training for the Fox Valley 1/2 Marathon in September. Oh God, those winds are kicking up and the sky is turning a little green. Tommy Skilling's voice is getting higher. Okay, I'm in the f*cking Vortex.
But I really, really want to stay here. I don't want to click my running shoe heels together and wake up 265 pounds again. I am scared shitless about this 1/2 Marathon and don't want to start hating running like I did last time. My head is in such a better place this time around and I am actually training properly, but I am still scared. I have been overeating the last couple of days and need to get my head back in the game. I had a horrible run this morning at the 5K and am feeling blue. Granted, it was 89 degrees at 8:00 a.m. and about 100 percent humidity and I still did the race in around 36 minutes, as opposed to the 56 minutes it took me this time last year.
Left: Windmill Whirl 5K 2011 (finished in 56-ish minutes). Right: Windmill Whirl 2012 (finished in 36-ish minutes) |
I'm just letting the Vortex get to my head and all of my running demons are flying by on broomsticks past my window, right? Where the hell is Glinda when I need her?
That was then......this is now! Completely different set of circumstances. You, Dorothy, always have the power within you. You can go home whenever you are ready. If the Vortex starts to whirl, you can click those running shoes and kick it back to Oz.
ReplyDeleteLove the side by side pictures... way to go! Take each day one step at a time.... you got this!
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